Oscillation

Hey there gorgeous,

would you mind if i step out of the friendship zone just this once?

you will avoid me for sure,

but it's killing me now... killing me...
so please allow me to tell you this...
just this once...

I am in love with you ever since i first laid eyes on you, but you have so much goin on with your life at that time... i stepped back... eyes fixated for eternity.. smiling when you smiled.. crying when you cried.. on this rubber swing, underneath the cold and grey sky.

But then the stars must have aligned when i was dreaming, Coz there you are one April morning, kicking and screaming on the nearby swing. Such a wonderful feeling... the sight of childish intoxicating beauty..

Wheels has been set in motion, jovially kicking back and forth until the light turns to night. Friendly hugs to end the moment... with a promise of another wonderful day. Oh... the friendship permeates my soul...

corrupting it...

incongruent with heart's desire...

So before i completely doomed myself... lose the very reason why we're here... i am starting somewhere...

Here i am unsure if its bravery or plain stupidity, the air around you seems to run away from me... suffocating... sweating... wasting lines brought forth by an uncooperative mind. To you, I say...

just this once... just before this drizzle turns to storm...
unveil the comfort of friendship,
step out and hear this heart's yearning...
savor the life outside the boundary,
the stifled love under muted sighs,
the warmth and feel of the gentle brushing of skins,
the longing tucked away so deep in the corner of the eyes.

if not in this lifetime, then maybe at least just this once... after the storm is gone..

but if all of these amounts to nothing...
then maybe just this once... don't go running...
i am sealing my fate in your friendship as you wish...
i will smile when you smile.. i will cry when you cry...
right here on this rubber swing, underneath the cold and grey sky...

if all of these amounts to nothing...

please don't leave this friend who loves you so dear...

soul hollowed... alone beside an empty rubber tire...

uneven... lifelessly swinging... slowly...

underneath this...

old...

scarred...

tree...